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Topic: New thread about my whine

Jennifer started this discussion 5.3 years ago #2,499

Sifter, you asked if I was eating and sleeping properly. No. I have sleep problems as it is. I can't be bothered to try to eat healthy. I have ordered pizza I think every other day this week. I just don't care about school but I know the consequences of not doing the work. I haven't really left the house much. I haven't worked out. It all is to much. Even those cats that spent the whole night outside my door was a lot. As adorable as they were they annoyed me because I couldn't take care of them. My stupid shower curtain fell off the wall and its really to much trouble to try to put it back up. I can't seem to get on top of my housework. Then all the stupid thinking I do and trying not to feel anything I am feeling. I'm going downhill, slowly. I'm thinking about this therapy thing all the time. How I need to do something, take another step in that direction, but its so much effort. I just want the world to go away. I want to stay in my bed 24/7. I'm not sad or anything. I can still make jokes. I just don't care. I don't know. I don't want to do anything.

Jennifer (OP) double-posted this 5.3 years ago, 5 minutes later[^] [v] #0

Honestly, I feel like I'm on the verge of some kinda breakdown. Like any minute I'm gonna break down in tears or throw my tv across the room or something.

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Sifter joined in and replied with this 5.3 years ago, 25 minutes later, 31 minutes after the original post[^] [v] #0

Well, sounds to me like you need a big cry. And if I had two little kittens at my door and I wasn't allowed to take them that would REALLY get to me. That alone would put me into exactly the state you're in. I don't have too much information but - sort of seems like you've been on the way up for a while, and maybe it's okay to have some down-time for a bit. Sometimes for me when I'm there it just takes switching into a mode where I'm just really sweet to myself, because basically, when you're like this you need some looking after. Cuddliest clothes for a while, and easiest food, and early nights, stuff like that. Only put your shower curtain up if you can do it to look after yourself, cos you know it's gonna make you feel a bit more taken care of if that is done. Otherwise, it's okay where it is.

The therapy thing - only do ANYTHING about that if you can give yourself a big reward before AND afterwards, and make sure it's only one simple step at a time. Basically... you are in a State of Emergency Gentleness, decreed by me, ok?

Jennifer (OP) replied with this 5.3 years ago, 5 hours later, 5 hours after the original post[^] [v] #0

Thanks guys. I'm sure I'll get over it.

Molly joined in and replied with this 5.3 years ago, 21 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #0

I often put the covers over my head. I get overwhelmed easily. Remember that photo you sent me of the beat down house wife?lol It is reality hidden in humor.

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Molly double-posted this 5.3 years ago, 2 minutes later, 6 hours after the original post[^] [v] #0

A cry is a good release for me..as long as you find your healthy release,then things will always get better with patience.

I love you befry. Sometimes I rub my be fri necklace for a release. ;)

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shh joined in and replied with this 5.3 years ago, 59 minutes later, 7 hours after the original post[^] [v] #0

Jen, I am with Helen on this one, it does sound like depression... depression somehow robs people of their ability to do just ordinary every day things, and our interest in doing things.

Don't give yourself a hard time about all the things you aren't doing Jen, maybe just choose one of them, and make a point of pushing yourself to accomplish that one thing tomorrow, and then give yourself a big pat on the back...maybe keep on this way until you start to feel a little better and you can push it to 2 things a day, but slowy, slowly, you will get there.

I think most of us have been there Jen...I can certainly recollect what it feels like to be dangling by my fingertips, trying not to let go and fall down that hole, trying to just hang in there until I find the strength to haul myself out again.
You are special Jen, hang in there! (((hugs)))

Daisy joined in and replied with this 5.3 years ago, 1 hour later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #0

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I've been there Jen and still struggle at times with this and the overwhelmed thing. I could have written your first post myself a month ago and was scared. You have some good advice here - I don't need to add to it except to say that it only feels like you are losing it...you really are going to be okay. You recognize how you are feeling. Be kind to yourself. It will be okay. You seem like a strong person and even though you may not feel that way right now, it will always pull you through. Trust me.
Hugs

dr-robert joined in and replied with this 5.3 years ago, 7 minutes later, 8 hours after the original post[^] [v] #0

Sounds like depression from here. I think it is time--past time-Jennifer to get some personalized help with this. You have been sticking one toe into the pool for quite a while now. The water may feel cold, but as soon as you jump in, you will be glad you did, I would bet. Make a trusted friend out of an honorable therapist, and you will have an ally in this suffering who will help you to work through it.

As for the whine, I prefer a dry Chilean merlot.

Jennifer (OP) replied with this 5.3 years ago, 26 minutes later, 9 hours after the original post[^] [v] #0

Yeah, I actually had to see my psychiatrist today. I thought I was going to see my gp but nope. He said I look like I'm losing my enthusiasm or something like that. He gave me the number for some therapists outside the network that my insurance will still cover. So, all I really have to do is make an appointment....

Jennifer (OP) double-posted this 5.3 years ago, 6 hours later, 15 hours after the original post[^] [v] #0

And while I prefer Lambrusco (yeah, yeah), liquor is quicker. :P I'm still not over that Evan Williams Eggnog. I'm getting 12 bottles this christmas if I have to knock a bitch out to get it. One for each of the 12 days of christmas.

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Molly joined in and replied with this 5.3 years ago, 12 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #0

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I second that Jen. We are all rooting for you,and really just love you,plain and simple. I love that you are looking for a new apartment because you care about those kittens. I read that with the biggest smile.

Mekay joined in and replied with this 5.3 years ago, 23 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #0

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me too

Ailonna joined in and replied with this 5.3 years ago, 10 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #0

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I like kittens too......


to EAT! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAA!

I'm kidding. I do actually like kittens.

Jennifer (OP) replied with this 5.3 years ago, 6 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #0

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Don't worry Ailonna. My neighbors have already asked if I have the rest of the ingredients to make cat stew. I accused one neighbor of actually eating one of the cats because it wasn't at my door but then it came back. I'm trying to figure out some good names for them. They're male and female. Neighbors have suggested Samson and Delilah, Bonnie and Clyde, Mickey and Malorie, etc.

Ailonna replied with this 5.3 years ago, 7 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #0

Decadence and Constance

Mickey and Minnie

Daisy and Donald

Gerald and Charlene

Ray and Faye

Ian and Myra

Ellen (the dude) and Portia

Prometheus and Bob

Tim and Helena

Rockem and Sockem

Mungojerrie and Rumpleteazer

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Mekay replied with this 5.3 years ago, 43 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #0

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You're cute. :)

I think you would make a great cat mother
jenniboo.

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Ailonna replied with this 5.3 years ago, 18 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #0

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This should be their names:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sssqBjaTzOU

Ailonna double-posted this 5.3 years ago, 11 minutes later, 1 day after the original post[^] [v] #0

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Thanks!
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