Dr. Robert Forum

Lately my thought processes have been generally more abstract and i question them more and i realize why i think certain things and why i do certain things and i've been realizing a lot about life in general. I think i remembered when i was being born the other day too. Not physically born but when I started to develop me/my ego like I remember looking around at my old house and my dad saying hi to me but maybe it was just my abstract imagination. I'm startin to get the whole "free will doesn't exist" concept and shit and infinity and the present moment and all that shit. Idk with all this techonology around today there's more interesting sources of information that can be found all around and stuff and in my Jr English class my teacher always talks about abstract stuff that used to fly over my head but i'm starting to get it you know? iu'm starting to look at the big picture, find myself. it's kinda like my mind is blank a lot of the time and i'm just kind of an observer, learning about the world. i like this whole awakening thing. I think in a few years from now maybe i'll be mature enough to actually put some effort into college and figure out what i want to do and stuff. Life is sailing smoothly for me, and i thought i'd share all this because you guys are discussing awakening and i think i'm starting to "awaken" myself. best of wishes to all